Asides

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Autumn I (Dionysus-The Bull).

Becoming the hero Perseus

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winged sandals,

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I have decided to start this text from the logic of hopelessness, which is what usually accompanies us. That is why it is necessary to start with the darkest and darkest part of my life. Here what I am trying to look for is “the void, the black and the naked”, to reveal to the reader the nothingness that inhabits me in a non-homogeneous way. ​

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That void of nothingness that is as concrete as solid bodies and reminds me how often I find myself isolated from myself, and from others around me. That emptiness that makes me feel encrypted in the infinitesimally tiny, fragmentary, dramatic, grotesque, random, picaresque and even dense and petrified, which sometimes tends to be the moving spectacle of life, to allow the light to progressively appear, the light of day. ​

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I have become, without realizing it and over the last thirty (30) years, the mythological, magical and powerful Perseus with his winged sandals. I have decided to alchemically transmute myself into the only heroine of my story and be able to cut off the head of my own Medusa. ​

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That monstrous being that inhabits my unconscious, and that is transfigured into the face of a Greia. The effigy that I cannot observe directly in its eyes, but only its reflection in my bronze spiritual shield. “My strength lies in the rejection of its direct vision, but not in a rejection of the reality of the world of monsters in which I have had to live” (1). ​

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That heavy part of myself that I assume as my personal burden, that when I see it directly petrifies me, and that only appears in the silence of my own “dark night.” ​

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Sometimes out of impatience, I tend to talk for the sake of talking, compromising when I shouldn't have. Sometimes I speak out of cowardice. From the outset, I have learned with pain that one must remain silent. I have learned to re-enter myself. Well, that dark night of which I speak does not exist outside, but only in me and in my own interior, just as only in me, my light also exists. ​

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I have needed to start with the night, empty and barren, and stay there for a long time. For before the first light of day and the first morning, with the sun rising in the east (2), I have had to go through infinite and implacable nights that decline in the west. Before the first word, the eternity of silence becomes necessary. ​

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I do want to be a good disciple of the samurai technique (3) that I have designed, and become the great spiritual warrior that I want to become. I have to begin with loneliness, and with that emptiness that represents the anguish of knowing the simulacrum, sometimes, the facsimile that I am. Without lies and without vanity to hide.

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The labyrinths of life that I have traveled in my mind, and throughout my physical stay on this plane, as I run behind a constant stream of thoughts, chatter, fun, banality and futility. It has sometimes made me lose my way, not being able to distinguish between heaven and hell, between the angel and the devil, between light and shadow, between the unconsciousness and the transconsciousness (4) that live in me. ​

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The above has distracted me from the purpose of this journey through the world of illusion and hopelessness: to learn to look inward, to achieve self-observation in my silence, without masks.

 

Being able to see the emptiness that overwhelms me as the anguish in my body progresses. All this sacrifice just to be able to give birth to the seed of enlightenment. ​ To do this, I have needed a lot of time and great inner courage that allowed me to become intimate with the inescapable idea of ​​my own death, while I learned to fight with my own demons.

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 As the samurai Miyamoto Musashi would say: I must become a thread while my master becomes a needle, in that training without rest and truce, in that rigorous training that my great samurai master has placed on my back: the God of pure light, who is the universal source of love that inhabits all beings on this planet. ​

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I must admit that before applying my technique to my first clients, I had to test my work on my own skin. Well, to learn to banish jellyfish and monsters, which inhabit the unconscious of other human beings, I initially had to learn to banish them from my own existence. ​

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I knew this was not going to be an easy task. And even when the path of my Trisaltatio technique had not matured, and caused me great wounds, I was clear that only by relying on the lightest thing that exists for me, which are the waters of the rivers, seas and oceans of my feelings, as well as the winds and clouds of my hyper-rationality, my high creativity and my active imagination, I could direct my gaze towards what could only be revealed to me in an indirect vision, in a captive image in the mirror that others usually are. ​

 

The famous Tibetan monk Trungpa Rinpoche, speaking about “Meditation in Action,” commented in one of his conferences in 1969 that: ​

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Unskilled farmers throw away their garbage and buy fertilizer from other farmers, but those who are skillful continue to collect their own garbage, despite the bad smell and dirty work, and when it is ready for use they spread it over the land, and This is how their crops grow. This is the skillful way. ​

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In exactly the same way Buddha says (5), those who are not skillful separate the clean from the unclean and try to throw away Samsara (6) in search of nirvana (7), but those who are skillful Bodhisattvas do not discard desire, passions and so on, but first they put them together.

 

This means that you must first recognize and admit them, study them and carry them out. ​ Preparation for prosperity in the midst of adversity begins with the gradual learning to look at our own garbage, recycle it and not throw it away.

 

I have to accept all these negative things and force myself to remove, through my Trisaltatio technique, certain rubble of the Müll (garbage) or the same old shiet (the same old shit) that is too human, as it appears in the signature by the American artist Jean Michel Basquiat “SAMO”, to begin my process of transmutation, rebirth and liberation again: from scratch (0). ​

 

These terrible things I have found in myself. I have studied them, analyzed them, meditated, and although to some it may seem dirty and unhygienic, I have learned to work and travel with my own garbage, while I self-observe and analyze it, without abandoning the head of my Medusa, carrying it with me in my magic bag., but without looking directly at her. ​ This is, apparently, the only way I have found to begin my initiation as a warrior.

 

Now I consider that the right time has arrived. I have decided to spread and use my own waste as compost in the field that this book has become. ​ I no longer want or need to keep it anymore. I want to allow that fertilizer that was born from my dirt, allow the seed of my own realization to be born, my light to be born. ​

 

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Bibliographic citations

(1) Calvino, Italo., (2001). Six proposals for the next millennium. 3rd ed. Siruela. Madrid. Spain. Lightness. P.21. ​

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(2) Phrase by the French philosopher André Comte Sponville.

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(3) Japanese word meaning “ancient Japanese warrior.” This comes from the Japanese Saburou, which means “to protect or serve.” ​

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(4) Transconsciousness comes from the Latin prefix trans, which takes the form tras, and means: “on the other side or through.” On the other hand, the word Consciousness comes from the Latin conscientῐa, which takes the form consciousness, and which means: “Immediate knowledge that the subject has of himself, his actions and reflections. It is the ability of human beings to see and recognize themselves and to judge about that vision and recognition.” Transconsciousness then means “the consciousness of seeing, recognizing oneself, and judging on that recognition what is on the other side or through.” Royal Spanish Academy., (2001). Spanish dictionary. Volume I and II. Twenty-second edition. Espasa. Barcelona. Spain. P.628. ​

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(5) Buddha, Siddharta Gautama Sakyamuni., Buddha, the enlightened one. In Buddhist scriptures it is accepted that the state of Buddha has nine characteristics: dignified, perfectly enlightened, maintains perfect knowledge, glorious, unsurpassed knower of the world, unsurpassed leader of people, teacher of gods and people, enlightened, blessed or fortunate. ​

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History: Son of Prince Suddhodana. When he was born, his crucial destiny was prophesied. According to tradition, his father tried to separate him from religious life and married him to his cousin Yasodhara, giving birth to a son named Rahula. But Siddhartha was driven by asceticism and abandoned his family and property in search of the truth. He retired to the jungle to meditate led by two Brahmins. After enduring harsh trials, he reached the so-called Four Truths: the reality of the world is pain; the origin of pain is desire; liberation from pain can be achieved through nirvana or extinction of pain; The path to nirvana is dharma, the law.

Taken from http://www.scribd.com/doc/12378103/Glosario-Sanscrito Glosario Sánscrito. Eco Granja Homa Olmué. P.22.

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(6) Samsâra is a word that comes from Sanskrit and means the “fact of traveling through an area, of passing from one state to another”, moving flow of phenomena, cycle of transmigration. “Reincarnation,” of which Westerners are so fond today, is nothing more than a diminished reflection of this doctrine. General designation of the experience of the world as something changing, contingent and unstable. It is conditioned existence. The passing of existences, the universal becoming, without beginning or end. Thus, the Samsara chakra means the wheel of death and rebirth. Op. Cit. P.84. ​

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(7) Nirvana is a word that comes from Sanskrit and means liberation, a state of peace. Op. Cit. P.63. Boddhisattva is a word that comes from Sanskrit and means a wannabe to one day be a Buddha. The boddhisatva follows the teachings of Buddha but vows not to achieve ultimate nirvana until all beings are liberated. Op. Cit. P.20.